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Going Scared with Jessica Honegger

The Going Scared Podcast with Jessica Honegger

Ready for honest and vulnerable conversations that will inspire you towards action? Join Noonday Collection Founder Jessica Honegger as she asks compelling guests about their stories, their tips, and their lessons on living lives of purpose by leaving comfort and going scared. Whether she’s picking someone’s brain about parenting styles or asking the CEO of a billion-dollar company about their professional pitfalls, expect these genuine conversations to be your weekly dose of motivation.

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Episode 115 – Justin Hale, Mastering Crucial Conversations

This week we continue our special series on the Art of Difficult Dialogue with master trainer and training designer, Justin Hale. Justin has traveled the world teaching businesses and individuals how to engage the art of productive dialogue by having Crucial Conversations. Today, Justin and Jessica have an incredibly helpful and practical chat about how we can better walk into our relationships ready to learn, grow, and have the conversations that are so important.

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Episode 114 – Eugene Cho, The Art of Not Being a Jerk

This week we continue our special series on the Art of Difficult Dialogue with pastor, speaker, author, and humanitarian Eugene Cho. Eugene is the newly minted President and CEO of Bread for the World and the Bread Institute, a prominent non-partisan Christian advocacy organization urging both national and global decision makers to help end hunger. In addition, he is the author of a brand-new book with an incredible title: Thou Shalt Not Be a Jerk. Today, Eugene and Jessica chat about how to “not be a jerk” in this heated political season. In addition, they get really vulnerable about race in American and the particular effect that 2020 is having on the Asian American community.

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Episode 113 – Justin Skeesuck and Patrick Gray, Putting the Person First

This week we continue our special series on the Art of Difficult Dialogue by welcoming back our friends Justin Skeesuck and Patrick Gray. You may remember that Patrick and Justin appeared on our show in 2018 to share with Jessica their remarkable story of traversing the Camino de Santiago – an epic 500 mile journey. This friendship and adventure was captured in their book and film, both titled I’ll Push You. Today, Justin, Patrick, and Jessica get very candid about how conversations regarding individuals with disabilities can go very wrong. However, they’ll also share thoughtful advice for changing the trajectory to a more honoring and affirming dialogue.

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Episode 112 – Sarah Stewart Holland & Beth Silvers, The Quest for Political Civility

This week we continue our special series on the Art of Difficult Dialogue by diving into the intense waters of political discourse. And there is nobody better to walk us through this than Sarah and Beth, the duo behind the popular Pantsuit Politics podcast. For a long time, Sarah and Beth were on opposite sides of the political spectrum. But because of their ability to openly, safely, and productively communicate, they’ve started to discover that they have much more in common than they once thought. If you’ve ever had visceral reactions to political conversations, than this conversation between Jessica, Beth, and Sarah is for you!

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Episode 111 – Tim Hightower, Talking About Race in the NFL

This week we continue our special series on the Art of Difficult Dialogue with former NFL elite athlete, Tim Hightower. Tim has one of the greatest sports comeback stories ever. After suffering an injury, he spent four seasons out of the game and in recovery. Miraculously, he made his way back to the NFL and will share his story with us today. In addition, Tim talks with Jessica not just to talk about his tenacity, but about his thoughts on how race is effecting sports, and how we can all learn to not shy away from the difficult truths and honest conversations.

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Episode 110 – Marie Case, Listening in Order to Learn

This week we continue our special series on the Art of Difficult Dialogue with the wisdom and expertise of Jessica’s executive coach and friend, Marie Case. Marie is, as you will hear, a wealth of knowledge. Through her years of coaching high-power CEO’s, she knows what it it takes to truly navigate a hard moment. In this season of political, social, and economic upheaval, Marie and Jessica challenge us to do what can often seem impossible – simply, intentionally, listen.

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Episode 109 – Paula Faris, Leaving The View and Embracing Hard Conversations

This week we’re continuing our special series all about the Art of Difficult Dialogue. And there may be no better person to give us some wisdom on this topic than Paula Faris. You likely know Paula as an ABC News journalist who has occupied a spot on The View, as well as a position on the Good Morning America Weekend desk. Today, Paula and Jessica have an amazing conversation about how Paula navigates the high-stakes, uncomfortable-conversation-filled world of journalism. They’ll also touch on how we can talk to our kids about responsibly navigating the media landscape.

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Episode 108 – Sam Collier, Confronting the Past and Shaping the Future

This week we’re launching a brand-new series all about the Art of Difficult Dialogue. In the coming weeks, we’re going deep into what it means to walk into times of disagreement and discomfort with an attitude of growth and a real desire to listen and learn. And there is no better guest to lead us off than Sam Collier. Sam had one of the most epically difficult conversations ever – on national television. Yet he survived that experience, writes about it in his new book, and will share a uniquely vulnerable conversation with Jessica about the lessons he’s learned along the way.

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Episode 107 – Susan Seay, Parenting in a World of Tech

Today we conclude our special digital health series with the incredible Susan Seay. Susan is a mentor for moms, podcast host, speaker, and consultant. Plus, she has SEVEN awesome kids – so she’s basically an all-star human being. Today, she and Jessica have a deeply thoughtful and practical conversation about ways we can engage technology safely with our kids. In addition, these long-time friends discuss the Black Lives Matter movement and the realities of race in America.

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Episode 106 – Tracy Foster, A Champion for Digital Health (pt. 2)

Today, we welcome back Tracy Foster – the Co-Founder and Executive Director of START. START champions using technology responsibly for overall digital health. Tracy and Jessica share a really vulnerable conversation about how last week’s great tech advice actually works now that the pandemic is changing the rules. Are the kids getting too much screen time? How do we handle virtual school technology? All of these questions and more as our special tech. series continues.

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Episode 105 – Tracy Foster, A Champion for Digital Health (pt. 1)

Today we continue our series all about our digital health. Joining Jessica is Tracy Foster. Tracy is the Co-Founder and Executive Director of START. START champions having digital health and using tech. responsibility. Tracy and Jessica’s conversation will not only give you practical tools for how to parent in this technology driven world, but share vulnerable stories of what it means to get it right – and learn from our mistakes.

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Episode 104 – Max Stossel, Humanizing Technology

Today we launch a brand-new series all about our digital health. During the pandemic, our need to be connected – even digitally – is at an all-time high, but at what cost? Are we using tech to escape? Is it making us more or less socially aware? Are our phones listening to us? To answer all of those questions, and more, Jessica spends time with Max Stossel. Max is the Head of Education for the Center for Humane Technology, an organization of former tech insiders and CEOs dedicated to realigning technology with humanity’s best interests. What Max reveals in this conversation may surprise you.

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Episode 103 – Latasha Morrison, Building Bridges of Racial Reconciliation

This is an encore presentation of the October 17, 2018 conversation with Latasha Morrison.

We all need to be people who leverage our power and bring what we’ve got to the table to make the world a better place. In the case of this week’s guest, Latasha Morrison, she is bringing all of us to the table to talk about race, reconciliation, empathy, and building bridges. Listen in as Jessica talks with her friend Latasha about what it means to not just to be a spectator, but to be someone who uses their life for the sake of others.

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Episode 102 – Shannon Sedgewick Davis, What it Means to be Tough

Today we get to spend time with the brilliant and brave, Shannon Sedgewick Davis. Shannon’s journey is one that found her committed to ending mass genocide around the globe, fighting for justice, and searching for Joseph Kony. As Jessica and Shannon walk though her journey, we’ll experience not only her incredible actions, but what it means to be resilient and tough – even when it’s hard.

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Episode 101 – Stefanie Boyce, Grief and Resilience

Today, Stefanie Boyce allows Jessica into her heartbreaking story of loss as she recounts the events that led up to her first to children dying within months of each other. Yet somehow, even in the midst of this grief, Stefanie gives to us an overwhelming perspective on what it means to be resilient and move forward when life comes crashing down.

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Episode 100 – Rebecca Bender, Lessons from a Survivor

There is truly no better person to continue our special Resilience Series than Rebecca Bender. At a young age, Rebecca was sold into human trafficking. What transpired, and what she’ll share with us today, is an unbelievable journey. Join Rebecca and Jessica as they walk through the dire realities of this story, as well as discover the courage it takes to recapture your life and redefine your future.

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Episode 99 – Lori Gottlieb, Advice for Being Resilient

Today we’re getting “therapized.” As we continue our Resilience Series, Jessica sits down with her special guest, Lori Gottlieb. Lori is a psychotherapist, New York Times bestselling author, nationally recognized journalist, and weekly “Dear Therapist” columnist for The Atlantic. Jessica and Lori discuss some of the ways we can be proactive in pursuing resilience during these confusing times. It’s such a powerful and practical conversation – enjoy!

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Episode 98 – Jessica Buchanan, Finding the Courage to Survive

You will not believe the story you’re about to hear. As we continue our special Resilience Series, we’re honored to welcome Jessica Buchanan. For 93 horrific days, Jessica was held hostage under brutal conditions. In her journey to survive, she learned an incredible amount about who she was, and how to live fully — even when that seems impossible. Today, both Jessica’s walk though what captivity can teach a person, and how fully accepting the current, difficult, realities can actually help us move forward in life.

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Episode 97 – Ruthie Lindsey, Finding Beauty in the Pain

As we continue our special Resilience Series, we’re honored to welcome Ruthie Lindsey. Ruthie’s story is a long and winding road that is filled with pain, struggling, addiction, and loss. Yet her journey doesn’t end with tragedy but with an amazing message of purpose. Today, Jessica and Ruthie share a conversation that not only details the beats of Ruthie’s journey, but inspires all of us to find beauty in the sacred wounds.

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Episode 96 – Jen Gotch, Thriving in Adversity

As we continue our special Resilience Series, we’re so pleased to welcome Jen Gotch. Jen is a truly inspiring creative, entrepreneur, and mental health advocate. As the founder of ban.do, Jen has taken an unlikely path to success that includes embracing flaws and understanding the influence of mental illness on her creativity. Today, Jessica and Jen talk about doing the hard and purposeful work of getting calm, grounded, and overcoming fear though regulation of our nervous systems. During these difficult times, this conversion gives timely advice for learning more about ourselves even in the midst of adversity.

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Episode 95 – Katherine Wolf, From Suffering to Hope

This week as we continue our special Resilience Series, we’re so pleased to welcome Katherine Wolf and her incredible perspective! Katherine’s story of loss, suffering, resilience and ultimately hope is exactly what we need to hear during these trying times. Join Jessica and Kathrine as they talk through the demands of hardship, the process of suffering, and the hope that’s available to all of us!

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Episode 94 – Dr. Edith Eger, Rising from Trauma

If there’s one thing we all need while the world grapples with COVID-19, it’s the reassurance that we are resilient. Throughout human history, we have withstood some of the greatest challenges imaginable, suffered with strength, and recovered. That’s why today we’re launching the new Resilience Series! Our guests for the next six weeks all have incredible stories and timely messages for our world today. This week, we are deeply privileged to learn from Dr. Edith Eger – a psychologist, author, and one of the few remaining Holocaust survivors old enough to remember life in the camps. Dr. Eger has worked with veterans, military personnel, and victims of physical and mental trauma. Today, she has a powerful message to share with us all.

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Episode 93 – International Women’s Day Special (Live!)

At Noonday Collection, every day is International Women’s Day! Run by women and for women, Noonday is a socially responsible business committed to fair trade and seeing women around the globe thrive. Today, we’re sharing a special live conversation in honor of International Women’s Day. This amazing panel of artists, entrepreneurs, thought leaders, and CEO’s assembled at Noonday’s 2020 Shine conference in Austin.

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Episode 92 – Dr. Benjamin Hardy, Finding Our Future Self

It is fitting that we wrap-up our 2020 New Year’s series with Dr. Benjamin Hardy. Dr. Hardy is an organizational psychologist who specializes in helping people achieve their desires by breaking free of self-limiting goals. Today, Jessica and Dr. Hardy get deep into some very practical ways you can reframe past memories and become the author of your identity.

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Episode 91 – Sarah Bullock McIntyre & Shannon Eddings, Making a House a Home

What does it mean to make a house a home? And what does it really look like to create a space that reflects the family that inhabits it? For the past two years, Sarah Bullock McIntyre (architect) and Shannon Eddings (interior designer) have been Jessica’s partners as she pursued an epic remodel of her family’s 1960s ranch-style home in Austin, TX. This project was a labor of love and collaboration between these expert guests and Jessica’s family, and today they talk about the process of renovating a house together. Enjoy this funny, honest, behind-the-scenes peek into an extreme home makeover – and learn a few practical tips for your own space, too.

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Episode 90 – Bozoma Saint John, Authentically Amazing

Bozoma Saint John is an incredibly accomplished businesswoman who operates in some of the most glamorous, intense, and high-powered companies in the world. And what she’s learned about success may surprise you. Today, Boz and Jessica have an amazing conversation about the power of authenticity. From being proud of who you are, to rocking that bold lipstick, these two leaders cover it all!

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Episode 89 – Jennie Allen, Changing our Mind

Today, author and passionate leader Jennie Allen is getting into our brains – and helping us to do the opposite. In her new book, “Get Out of Your Head,” Jennie explores why we all have certain thought patterns, the science behind where they come from, and how we can overcome negative thinking. Spend time with longtime friends Jennie and Jessica as they go deep and get honest about the thought patterns that influence their decisions and what it’s meant for them to focus on the parts of life that are true, joyful, and just lovely!

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Episode 88 – Dr. Laurie Santos, Exploring True Happiness

How many of you have had an amazing, epic, mountain top moment happen in your life — but deep down inside, the view from the top didn’t make you feel quite as happy as you imagined? To be honest, we’ve all had that experience. But it doesn’t have to be that way. Today, Jessica spends time with Dr. Laurie Santos — a cognitive scientist and researcher of all things happiness. Together they’ll unpack some of the baggage that leads us to ignore the sweeter moments in life and keeps us from being truly happy.

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Episode 87 – Cassy Joy Garcia, Keeping us Fed & Fit

This week we continue our special series dedicated to bettering our minds, bodies, time, and lives! And there may be no better person to hear from than Cassy Joy Garcia. Cassy is the Editor in Chief behind the popular food and wellness website, fedandfit.com.

Listen in as Cassy and Jessica get real and get practical about simplifying wellness though quick recipes, nutrition, fitness, and safer home and beauty products!

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Episode 86 – Jia Jiang, Rejecting Fear

As we continue our special series about bettering our minds, bodies, time, and lives – we have to talk about fear and going scared! Which is why we are fortunate to hear from one of the world’s foremost experts on fear and rejection, Jia Jiang.

Listen in as Jessica and Jia talk about the crazy ways he was able to stare rejection in the face, feel the fear, and overcome!

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Episode 85 – Tonya Dalton, New Year New Priorities

This show marks the launch of a special series all about you, where we learn about our minds, our bodies, our time, and our life! And what better way to launch into the new series and new year than with Tonya Dalton, a renowned productivity expert.

For those of you that love a good to-do list, get ready to be challenged. Tonya is all about showing us that what we need aren’t tasks, but meaningful priorities!

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Episode 84 – Special Ethical Holiday Shopping Episode!

It’s the most wonderful time of the year – to shop! Happy Holidays! Today we’re going to spend time with four incredible women who are at the helm of ethical and amazing businesses. Our hope is that their passion will inspire you to use your purchasing power for good!

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Episode 83 – Jeremy Courtney, Loving on the Frontlines

Who is your enemy? Who is your friend? To consider those questions we spend time with Jeremy Courtney, founder and president of Preemptive Love Coalition. Preemptive Love is a “coalition stretching across Iraq, Syria, the United States, and beyond, working together to unmake violence and create the more beautiful world our hearts know is possible.” Lean in as Jeremy and Jessica work to re-frame the idea of good and evil, as well as help us understand some of the current conflicts around the globe—and how we can be a part of bringing peace.

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Episode 82 – Emily and Erik Orton, Going Scared (on a boat for a year!)

Emily and Erik Orton were in a rut. After a series of professional and personal failures, they felt like they needed to resuscitate their life. So, they did what any parents of 5 children would do – went sailing, FOR A YEAR! Today, Emily and Erik share with Jessica their epic voyage of living at sea. And they’ll reveal how the journey of staying alive taught them more than just survival skills – it taught them how to live again.

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Episode 81 – Melissa Russell, Justice Advocate and Best Friend

As International Justice Mission’s Regional President of North America, Melissa Russell is leading a huge team of people in the work of protecting the poor from violence. Her honesty about her faults (and strengths!), as well as a fierce determination to equip all of us in the work of justice, has been seminal in the global movement to end slavery. And on top of that, she just so happens to be one of Jessica’s best friends! Today, these dear friends talk about leadership, collaboration, and a little girl named Esther. This one will tug at your heart.

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Episode 80 – Amena Brown, Poet and Performing Artist

When Amena Brown steps on stage, she carries with her not only a life full of experiences, but the ability to communicate her journey through a deep, vulnerable, hilarious, and bold artistic voice. Today, Amena and Jessica talk about the power of vulnerability and how we can change the messages that play on a loop in our mind. Plus, Amena shares the amazing story of collaborating with THE Tracee Ellis Ross!

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Episode 79 – Ally Davidson, Gladiator and CEO

Doesn’t every little girl dream about trying out for American Gladiator on the day of her wedding? Well Ally Davidson did just that – and won the competition! But it was what she did after the win that may surprise you. As Jessica and Ally talk about the journey of opening the life-changing fitness experience, Camp Gladiator, they’ll challenge all of us to consider how we spend our time, what our purpose is, and how we’re leveraging our life to make an impact on the world!

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Episode 78 – Heather Avis, Special Needs Advocate and Author

To celebrate Down Syndrome Awareness Month, Heather Avis is joining Jessica for an incredible conversation about inclusion and advocacy. Heather is not only an Instagram star and mom to three adopted kids—two with Down Syndrome— but she has made it her mission to introduce the world to the unique gifts of those pushed to the edges of society. This is an episode that will leave you inspired and saying to everyone, “Hi! What’s your name?”

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Episode 77 – Hillary McBride, Counselor and Author

How many of us have looked in the mirror and said things we’d never say to another person? This is the reality for so many of us who struggle, deeply, with simply accepting our body – let alone loving it. Today, Jessica and Hillary have a deeply personal and practical conversation about body image, raising healthy daughters, and re-framing our internal monologue to be one of health and love.

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Episode 76 – Phileena Heuertz, Author and Spiritual Director

As an author, speaker, spiritual director, retreat guide and yoga instructor, Phileena Heuertz is passionate about spirituality and making the world a better place. Today we’re spending time with Phileena in considering what really grounds us. So take a break and listen to Jessica and Phileena as they share their own journey of “contemplative spirituality.”

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Episode 75 – Rebekah Lyons, Bestselling Author and Speaker

It’s important that we talk about anxiety and depression. Because in one form or another, we’re all on the journey of better mental health and searching for renewal. Yet the “fix” for our symptoms isn’t always clear, and often we feel alone in the struggle. Today, long-time friends Rebekah and Jessica take us through their own stories and give practical advice. We hope the honesty of this conversation is helpful for your life and story!

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Episode 74 – Suzy Batiz, Founder of Poo-Pourri

What if you took every business and life lesson you’ve ever learned and tossed it out the window – would you be crazy? Suzy Batiz doesn’t think so. Forged by a life marked with struggle, innovation, and bravery, Suzy challenges what it means to be content and how we can be fulfilled – now. Today, Jessica sits down with Suzy who bravely shares the story of her life and how she’s re-framing entrepreneurship.

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Episode 72 – Simon T. Bailey, Fearless Breakthrough Strategist

There are two things you’re going to notice about Simon Bailey. First, his laugh – it’s the best! And second, his unwavering belief that for people to build the future they’re hoping for, they must be fearless. Today, Jessica and Simon have a really fascinating and wide-ranging conversation on attitude, relationships, divorce, and going scared!

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Episode 71 – Heather Land, Comedian and Viral Sensation

Most people know Heather Land from her viral and hilarious “I Ain’t Doin’ It” videos. But what may surprise you is Heather’s journey and her decision to be bold in the midst of a crazy upheaval in her life.

Today, Heather and Jessica get deep into what it’s like becoming famous, life after home school, and the aftermath of addiction.

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Episode 70 – Jessica Ewing, Founder and CEO at Literati

How does a promising tech. wiz go from surviving alone in the wilderness (for a long time!) to starting the incredible children’s book company, Literati? Well, her story and her path will surprise you and give you the courage to do things you’ve never done before.

Today, Jessica and Jessica sit down in the Noonday office to discuss life, courage, entrepreneurship, and – wait for it – fishing!

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Episode 69 – Lauren Scruggs Kennedy, Author and Entrepreneur

After a brief summer break, Going Scared is back and better than ever! And what better way to kick off our new season than with the fabulous Lauren Scruggs Kennedy. Lauren is a celebrated lifestyle blogger, advocate for individuals with limb differences, and non-stop, high-energy entrepreneur. You’re going to love her. Today, Lauren shares her amazing journey with Jessica and inspires all of us to live lives of bravery and purpose!

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Episode 68 – Rachel Cruze, Author of The Contentment Journal

We all know that choosing to be content with what we have is the better way to live. Yet so often we find ourselves thinking, “If only I could afford that, or weighed that much, or had this kind of marriage – my life would be so much better.” So many of us struggle with contentment, which is why Jessica’s conversation with Rachel Cruze is so important. Rachel is the bestselling author of The Contentment Journal, a 90-day journey towards contentment. Today, Rachel gives us some really practical knowledge about loving the life you have, and not someone else’s. And as a bonus, we’ll get some insider knowledge about what it was like growing up the home of famed financial guru, Dave Ramsey.

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Episode 67 – Luvvie Ajayi, Comedy, Rants and Randomness

Luvvie Ajayi is the hilarious and honest author of “I’M JUDGING YOU: The Do-Better Manual.” In addition she’s the writer of of the super-popular AwesomelyLuvvie.com, host of an amazing podcast titled, “Rants and Randomness,” and just launched yet another podcast with Yvonne Orji called “Jesus and Jollof”! Luvvie is an amazing person, and today she and Jessica talk about pop-culture, media, race, friendship, social justice and – why not – beauty products. Get ready to laugh!

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Episode 66 – Todd Herman, author of The Alter Ego Effect

Remember when you were little and you played “pretend” for hours on end? Except for you, it wasn’t pretending. You really were someone else and you could fly, dance, tumble, and sing just like that person. Well Todd Herman is trying to harness that childlike imagination to help us adults release the power inside of us. Today, Jessica and Todd get deep into what it means to have an alter ego and why it’s so important to literally put on the cloak of our idealized self.

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Episode 65 – SXSW with Jen Hatmaker

Today you get to drop in on SXSW and listen to a special conversation between good friends Jessica Honegger and Jen Hatmaker! They’re talking about Jessica’s book, Imperfect Courage, what it means to go scared, and what kind of courage is required to start – and stay.

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Episode 64 – Jordan Lee Dooley, Author of Own Your Everyday

How many times have we told ourselves to “stay in the moment” or “it’s the journey, not the destination?” Well today, Jessica and our guest Jordan Lee Dooley talk about just that. These friends get into what it means to celebrate the journey and not just get hung up on the outcomes. From finding mentors, to networking efficiently, to supporting other women – this is an episode you’ll need to listen to a few times!

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Episode 63 – Alexander McClean, Founder of African Prisons Project

Alexander McClean is the Founder and Director General of African Prisons Project. This organization empowers changemakers within prisons who will use the law to bring justice to some of the world’s most vulnerable. Alexander and his team are based in London, UK, and work in East Africa – particularly in Kenya and Uganda – with men, women and children. They provide legal training and services, as well as improving prison conditions through libraries, health awareness and life-skills. Today, Alexander and Jessica talk about the state of the East African prison system as well as how Alexander saw a problem in the world and took bold steps to change it. If there’s an issue in the world that you care about or there’s some injustice that breaks your heart – today’s episode will matter a great deal to you.

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Episode 62 – Emily P. Freeman, Author of The Next Right Thing

Emily P. Freeman is a writer, creative director, and spiritual mentor who helps create space for the soul to breathe so people can walk in step with their calling. Today, Emily brings her unique brand of steady, thoughtful, reflective wisdom to Going Scared. Sit back and savor Emily and Jessica’s conversation conversation as they discuss how all of us can create space in our lives, gain some perspective, and become empowered to do the next right thing.

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Episode 61 – Mandy Arioto, MOPS President/CEO and Author

Mandy Arioto is on a mission. In her life and in her new book she is challenging us not just to have moments of fun – but to live lives that are remarkable and defined by joy. Yet that’s ofter easier said than done, right? Today, Jessica and Mandy talk about the dedication it takes to have more fun and how all of us can do things right now that will empower us to enjoy life! Oh, and they also talk about Hallmark movies, rock climbing, and vasectomies. It’s a great conversation!

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Episode 60 – Hal Elrod, Author and Miracle Maker

Hal Elrod’s story is, quite frankly, insane. As someone who has defeated death (twice!) Hal is uniquly qualified to share his thoughts on how we can truly live.

Today, Jessica and Hal not only chat about his amazing journey, but how through persistence, tenacity, and just doing the things you’ve got to do – we can achieve more than we’ve ever thought possible.

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Episode 59 – Dr. Saundra Dalton-Smith, Rest and Wellness Expert

Are you tired? Of course you are! We all are. That’s why today’s conversation between Dr Saundra Dalton-Smith and Jessica is so important.

As a board-certified internal medicine physician and the author of her new book, “Sacred Rest: Recover Your Life, Renew Your Energy, Restore Your Sanity,” Dr. Dalton-Smith has a lot to teach us about getting quality, lasting, and rejuvenating rest.

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Episode 58 – Fair Trade Roundtable with Liz Bohannon & Molly Stillman

Today on a very special episode, Jessica hosts a roundtable with Liz Bohannon and Molly Stillman. Liz is the Founder and CEO of the ethical fashion brand Sseko Designs, and Molly is the curator of the Still Being Molly blog and Business with Purpose podcast.

Together, these friends cover a lot of ground. From The Office to entrepreneurship to the importance of fair trade – this is a hilarious and inspiring episode. Enjoy!

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Episode 57 – Rich Karlgaard, Publisher of Forbes Magazine

With a lofty title like “Publisher of Forbes Magazine,” you’d think that Rich Karlgaard was a young, scrappy go-getter who was groomed for greatness at an early age. But that’s just not Rich’s story. Today he sits down with Jessica and talks about what it meant for him to buck the traditional trends of early achievement and how his story can influence our own aspirations and parenting styles.

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Episode 56 – Jasmine Star, Photographer and Business Strategist

If you’ve ever used social media for anything other than sharing pictures of dogs and cute kids – this is your episode. This week, photographer and business strategist Jasmine Star takes us to social media school and teaches entrepreneurs how to build a brand, market it on social media, and create a life they love.

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Episode 55 – Alan Graham, visionary behind Community First

What does it mean to be home? Alan Graham has leveraged his life’s work to answer that question. Today, Alan and Jessica discuss his revolutionary Community First! Village—a 27-acre master planned development in northeast Austin that provides affordable, permanent housing and a supportive community for men and women coming out of chronic homelessness.

And in this discussion about what it means to be chronically homeless, Alan teaches all of us the importance of being in community and loving our neighbor.

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Episode 54 – Reshma Saujani, Founder of Girls Who Code

Reshma Saujani is a pretty incredible person. First, she is the Founder and CEO of Girls Who Code, a national non-profit organization working to close the gender gap in technology and change the image of what a programmer looks like and does. And as if that wasn’t enough, she is also the first Indian American woman to run for U.S. Congress, a viral TED speaker, and the author of a new book, “Brave, Not Perfect: Fear Less, Fail More, and Live Bolder.”

Today, Reshma and Jessica take us inside what it looks like to be a little less perfect (even forgoing spellcheck!) to make room for the things that matter. In addition, Reshma shares some incredible advice for raising daughters who aren’t afraid to fail.

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Episode 53 – John Ruhlin, Expert Gift Giver

John Ruhlin has no problem with being called a master networker. Because to John, networking is not some cheap sales tactic, but a vital way to connect and build long-term relationships. Which, we all need. From sales, to breaking into a new friend-group, to navigating the treacherous waters of the PTA, we could all use a little help fostering deep networking relationships.

Today, John is giving us the gift of effective networking. With his revolutionary “Giftology” approach to building connections, John and Jessica discover what it means to communicate value and deepen relationships.

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Episode 52 – International Women’s Day Special

Today we celebrate the stories, lives, and empowerment of women. Joining Jessica are three amazing Noonday artisans: Moon Sharma, Jalia Matovu, and Anne Nzilani. These four friends sit around the table and get deep into what it means to be a woman who lives of dignity and purpose.

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Episode 51 – Anne Mahlum, Entrepreneur and Motivator

Anne Mahlum is an entrepreneur who builds businesses with purpose. From Back on My Feet, a non-profit she founded in 2007 to change the way those who experience homelessness see themselves, to [solidcore], a fast-growing boutique fitness company – Anne uses her story and her passion to change the lives of countless people. Today, Anne gets personal with Jessica on her life story, her drive to succeed, and her path to becoming a double-entrepreneur.

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Episode 50 – Dominique Dawes, Olympic Gold Medal Gymnast

There’s a good chance you already know who Dominique Dawes is. She was a gymnast who competed in three Olympic Games, winning team medals in all of them – becoming the only American gymnast to do so. She was part of the “Magnificent Seven” at the 1996 Atlanta Games. And if that wasn’t enough, she is the first female African-American gymnast to win an individual medal. But these days, Dominique faces a task that she says is drastically more challenging than gymnastics ever was – motherhood. Today, Jessica and Dominique get deep into what makes an athlete, and what life is like when the competition ends.

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Episode 49 – Joe & Jessica Honegger Valentine’s Day Special

Today on a very special Valentine’s Day episode, Jessica and Joe take us deep inside their marriage. From courtship to navigating marriage, kids, and business – Joe and Jessica are giving us the real, funny, and emotional story.

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Episode 48 – Tiffany Aliche, “The Budgetnista”

From a very early age, Tiffany Aliche understood the value of a dollar (and a power bill). But like so many of us, she made some financial missteps that led her to reexamine her own views of money, and how she manages it. Today, Tiffany, aka “The Budgetnista,” inspires others to manage their money in a way that helps them reach their goals and turn their dreams into reality. Today, Jessica and Tiffany have an incredibly helpful and practical conversation about spending, saving, and taking control of your financial life!

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Episode 47 – Becca Stevens, Founder of Thistle Farms

Following the death of her father and subsequent child abuse when she was five, Becca Stevens dedicated herself to creating a loving community for survivors. In 1997 she opened Thistle Farms. Thistle Farms is a women’s residence that provides free housing, medical care, therapy and education. In addition, the Global Market of Thistle Farms helps employ more than 1,800 women worldwide. This week, Jessica and Becca have an honest, funny, and inspiring conversation about what it looks like to restart your life and turn tragedy into healing.

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Episode 46 – Danielle Walker, Author and Chef

From a harrowing medical journey to the New York Times bestseller list, Danielle Walker has an incredible story to share. Diagnosed at 22 with a debilitating autoimmune disease, she suffered for years until one day, she started cooking. Today, Jessica walks with her friend Danielle though her journey, as well as her dogged determination to restart her healing, over and over again.

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Episode 45 – Myquillyn Smith, Nester and Author

Myquillyn Smith is helping us with our “Restart” series by giving us wisdom to (yet again) tackle our homes in a way that adds more, but costs less! Jessica and Myquillyn chat about what it means to decorate your home in a way that isn’t necessarily perfect, but is beautiful and purposeful.

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Episode 44 – Gretchen Rubin, Author and Happiness Expert

Well it’s that time of year again, the time to make resolutions – and, let’s be honest, break them. But what if you knew yourself better? What if you understood your core tendencies and didn’t focus on a “new you,” but rather a better understanding of what really drives you? Today, Jessica chats with bestselling author, speaker, podcast host and blogger Gretchen Rubin. Gretchen’s work on our four core tendencies will get us all restarted on our goals and set us up for success and happiness in the new year!

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Episode 43 – Steph Gaudreau, Nutrition and Fitness Expert

Steph Gaudreau’s mission is to help us think about our bodies and minds in loving, healthy ways. Yet so often we spiral in the messages we tell ourselves and chase some elusive goal that’s just not realistic. Today, on our last show of the year, Steph chats with Jessica about the peaks and valleys of dieting as well as what we can do to better care for ourselves.

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Episode 42 – Adelle Archer, Co-Founder of Eterneva

Sometimes inspiration strikes at unforeseen and surprising times. Such is the case with Adelle Archer who, in her quest to honor her friend and mentor who had recently died, created a multi-million dollar business. Eterneva allows people to take the ashes of departed loved ones and turn them into diamonds. Adelle and Eterneva are creating a new category in the business world and are redefining what it means to remember. This week, Adelle shares her story and her entrepreneurial spirit with Jessica.

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Episode 41 – Jessica Turner, Author of “The Fringe Hours”

When we think about starting something new, our first objection is usually, “But when?!” In a life filled with never ending to-do’s and very little margin, Jessica Turner challenges women to push beyond the limitations of time and make bold decisions to pursue their dream. This week, Jessica sits down with her friend Jessica Turner to discuss all things motherhood, entrepreneurship, and creating space for the things that matter.

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Episode 40 – Shuronda Robinson, President and CEO of Adisa Communications

Down to her last $35, Shuronda Robinson went scared and leveraged it all to start a hugely successful communications firm. This week, Shuronda sits down with her friend Jessica and talks about the fear of starting something new, the joy in finding your truth, and making the decision to jump into the deep end.

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Episode 39 – Ian Cron, Entrepreneur and Enneagram Coach

To start a new project, a new season, or even a new business – we have to know ourselves. We have to know what drives us and what hinders us. And one of the best resources for discovering our core motivations is the Enneagram. This week, Jessica goes on an emotional journey with Enneagram master, Ian Cron. Jessica and Ian chat about what the Enneagram means for the “starter,” and how we can all lean in and start going scared!

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Episode 38 – Alli Webb, Founder of Drybar

This week kicks off a special series of shows we’re calling our “Starter Series.” Each week we’ll hear from someone who knows what it takes to go from a moment of inspiration to a realized dream. To start us off, Jessica chats with Alli Webb. Alli is the founder of Drybar, a business that started as an outlet for a stay-at-home mom and has now become a $100 million dollar brand!

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Episode 37 – Build a Flourishing World with Andy Crouch

In this final week of a special series of shows, Jessica walks through the concluding chapter of her book with special guest, Andy Crouch. Andy is a thought leader, writer and speaker. And in all those pursuits, Andy moves people to discover what it means to build a flourishing world by being the people they were designed to be. This conversation is honest, emotional, and really important for all of us who desire to lead lives of meaning and impact.

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Episode 36 – Quit Trying with Aaron Edelheit

As world changers, entrepreneurs, and all around high capacity people, one of the hardest things for us to do is rest. Yet it’s critical for us to know when and how to quit trying. To give us wisdom in this area, Jessica speaks with author and CSO Aaron Edelheit. Aaron has discovered an ancient and simple solution to finding margin in a life that seems to never have enough hours. Also, this week continues a special series of shows where Jessica takes us through the themes of her brand new book, Imperfect Courage, one chapter at a time!

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Episode 35 – Leverage Your Power with Latasha Morrison

We all need to be people who leverage our power and bring what we’ve got to the table to make the world a better place. In the case of this week’s guest, Latasha Morrison, she is bringing all of us to the table to talk about race, reconciliation, empathy, and building bridges. Listen in as Jessica talks with her friend Latasha about what it means to not just to be a spectator, but to be someone who uses their life for the sake of others. Also, this week continues a special series of shows where Jessica takes us through the themes of her brand new book, Imperfect Courage, one chapter at a time!

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Episode 34 – Widen Your Circle (again!) with Shannan Martin

When we think about the idea of “widening your circle,” what are we really considering? Do we actually want to dive into the stories of people who are unfamiliar to us – even if it’s uncomfortable? This week, Jessica spends time in the home of Shannan Martin. Shannan is popular blogger, speaker and author. Her new book, The Ministry of Ordinary Places, encourages us to uncover the hidden corners of our cities and neighborhoods and invest deeply in the lives of people around us. Also, this week continues a special series of shows where Jessica takes us through the themes of her brand new book, Imperfect Courage, one chapter at a time!

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Episode 33 – Widen Your Circle with Melissa Butler

As CEO of the groundbreaking and wildly successful beauty brand, The Lip Bar, Melissa Butler knows what it means to courageous. From quitting her lucrative Wall Street career to mixing lipstick shades in her kitchen – Mellissa has created a place where all women can embrace their beauty. This week, Jessica and Melissa talk about the importance of widening your circle outside of the traditional norms and embracing the beauty that’s inherent in all people. Also, this week continues a special series of shows where Jessica takes us through the themes of her brand new book, Imperfect Courage, one chapter at a time!

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Episode 32 – Commit to Collaboration with Brit Gilmore & Caitlin Crosby

It is hard to imagine a more effective and inspiring commitment to collaboration than that of Caitlin Crosby and Brit Gilmore. These women have created the wildly successful and impactful brand, The Giving Keys. The Giving Keys, through their social impact employment model, support job creation for people transitioning out of homelessness. This week, Jessica gets deep with Caitlin and Brit and dives into their relationship, collaboration, drives, and dreams. Also, this week continues a special series of shows where Jessica takes us through the themes of her brand new book, “Imperfect Courage,” one chapter at a time!

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Episode 31 – The Sisterhood Effect with Jamie Ivey

This week we get to learn from Jamie Ivey about the power of sisterhood and collaboration. Jamie is the host of the wildly popular podcast, The Happy Hour with Jamie Ivey, as well as a sought after speaker and writer. Her newest book, If You Only Knew, gives a brutally honest account of stepping out of shame and insecurity and into a life of transparency. Jessica and Jamie have an incredibly honest conversation about discovering the sisterhood effect and being more than just observers of each others stories – but participants in them. Listen in as they dive into what it really means to do life together, and how we can all harness the power of sisterhood in our own lives. Also, this week continues a special series of shows where Jessica takes us through the themes of her brand new book, Imperfect Courage, one chapter at a time!

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Episode 30 – Create Compassionate Spaces with Curt Thompson

What does it really mean to know someone – and to allow yourself to be known? What it root of shame and how do we reframe that story to experience compassion? Those questions, what on earth neuroplasticity is, and much more this week as Jessica chats with her friend, mentor, and special guest, Curt Thompson. Curt is a best-selling author and the founder of Being Known, an organization that seeks to help people explore the integral relationship between deep, meaningful connections and the development of healthier minds, healthier communities and ultimately, a healthier world. Also, this week continues a special series of shows where Jessica takes us through the themes of her brand new book, Imperfect Courage.

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Episode 29 – Embrace Vulnerability with Ashley Lemieux & Amy Brown

This week on a very special LIVE episode, Jessica chats with Ashley Lemieux and Amy Brown. Ashley is the founder of the Shine Project that, to date, has provided over 40 scholarships to inner-city youth. Amy is the co-host of the wildly popular Bobby Bones Radio Show and cares deeply for the people of Haiti. These three friends get real – very real – about the times they’ve felt most exposed and how they were able to discover their courage. Get ready for this one!

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Episode 28 – Going Together with Enneagram Master Suzanne Stabile

Have you ever wondered what this Enneagram craze is all about? Well this is your week! Get ready to go on a journey of self-exploration with Jessica and her guest, Suzanne Stabile. Suzanne is an Enneagram Master (for real, that’s her title) and the author of a number of groundbreaking books including the recently released, The Path Between Us: An Enneagram Journey to Healthy Relationships. Also, this week continues a special series of shows where Jessica takes us through the themes of her brand new book, Imperfect Courage.

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Episode 27 – Own Your Worth with Jenna Kutcher

This week Jessica has a revealing and vulnerable conversation with her friend, Jenna Kutcher. Jenna is a photographer, podcaster, educator, social media influencer, and entrepreneur. And today, Jessica and Jenna get honest about body image and what it means to truly own your worth. Also, this week continues a special series of shows where Jessica takes us through the themes of her brand new book, “Imperfect Courage,” one chapter at a time!

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Episode 26 – SPECIAL BOOK RELEASE EPISODE with Jennie Allen & Jessica Honegger!

Can you believe it!? Jessica’s brand new book, Imperfect Courage, is released today! Here to chat with Jessica on this momentous occasion is her dear friend, Jennie Allen. Jennie is a sought after speaker, writer, and collaborator. She is also the founder and visionary for the million-strong IF:Gathering, which exists to gather, equip, and unleash the next generation to live out their purpose. Listen in as Jessica talks with Jennie about her experience as a first-time author — and all the vulnerability, life lessons, and excitement that come along with it!

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Episode 25 – Step Into Your Story with Megan Tamte

Today we get to spend time with Megan Tamte. Megan is the incredible CEO of Evereve, a women’s retail brand with 85 stores across the country. The company also has a new subscription styling service called Trendsend. Both Evereve and Trendsend are committed to serving women by  helping them feel beautiful and powerful and good about themselves! In this episode, Jessica and Megan get real about life as a working mom—and how women can reject the voices that tell them they aren’t enough and embrace their imperfectly courageous stories instead.

Also, this week continues a special series of shows where Jessica takes us through the themes of her brand new book, “Imperfect Courage,” one chapter at a time!

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Episode 24 – Stand Up with Hugette Montesinos-Rodriguez

Hugette Montesinos-Rodriguez is deeply committed to stirring the heart, mind and spirit of today’s woman, redefining the standards of beauty and challenging popular culture through candid conversation, thoughtful research, and prolific editorial content. As the founder, Editor-in-Chief, and Creative Director for Disfunkshion magazine, she is a wealth of wisdom and encouragement – and perhaps most inspiring of all, she takes a nap every day!

Also, this week continues a special series of shows where Jessica takes us through the themes of her brand-new book, Imperfect Courage, one chapter at a time!

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Episode 23 – Choosing Courage with Gary Haugen

From investigating the genocide in Rwanda to being the founder and CEO of IJM, the worlds largest organization dedicated to ending slavery, Gary Haugen know what it means to be courageous. This week, Jessica and Gary chat about what it looks like to stare down fear and take bold steps despite the consequences. Also, this week begins a special series of shows where Jessica takes us through her brand new book, “Imperfect Courage”, a chapter at a time!

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Episode 22 – Endurance for the Long Road with Jennifer Pharr Davis

Jennifer Pharr Davis knows a thing or two about endurance. Jennifer is a wife, mom of two, author, entrepreneur, and a record-setting long-distance hiker. In 2011, Jennifer set the record for the fastest completed hike on the Appalachian Trail, finishing the 2181-mile trail in 57 days, hiking nearly 50 miles a day. Jennifer stopped by to tell us about her new book The Pursuit of Endurance, the many parallels between entrepreneurship and life on the trails, the huge difference between stopping and quitting.

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Episode 21 – Navigating the New Rules of Work: with Alexandra Cavoulacos

We’ve all faced this huge Going Scared moment: job searching. Résumés, cover letters, interviews, networking—it’s draining at best, and gut-wrenching at worst. There are dozens of nuances to navigate in our ever-changing job market, and it’s hard to know how to prioritize our tasks. That why we’re thrilled to have career-building expert Alexandra Cavoulacos on today’s episode.

Alex is the co-founder and president of The Muse, a platform used by over 50 million people a year to find a job, learn professional skills, or advance their careers. She is the co-author of The Wall Street Journal bestselling book The New Rules of Work: The Modern Playbook for Navigating Your Career.

Today’s conversation with Alex is chock-full of job search tips, like how to determine your career values, deciphering if a company is right for you, the best way to get your name in front of the right people, and why you should always have questions for your interviewer.

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Episode 20 – Writing Your Own Permission Slip To Do What You Love – with Christy Wright

Why aren’t you making money from doing what you love? What’s stopping you? According to certified business coach and Ramsey personality Christy Wright, it’s you. To create a successful, satisfying career, you have to write your own permission slip. And today’s episode will help you reach for pen and paper and start writing.

Christy has a passion to empower women to become accomplished business owners. She is the Wall Street Journal bestselling author of Business Boutique, and she created her online academy and podcast to connect women with an online community that can offer tools and advice to burgeoning business owners.

In this conversation, Christy shares tips on how to find balance between work and life, how to be fully present wherever you are, and why sometimes you need to say yes, even when you don’t know the next step forward.

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Episode 19- Getting Out of the Cocoon: Becoming The Leader You’re Meant to Be with Jo Saxton

What does leadership mean? For today’s guest, leadership means to be intentional with influence and help others rise together. Author and leadership coach Jo Saxton has helped thousands of women put aside their fears and embrace becoming the leaders they were meant to be. On this episode, Jo reveals her own journey from cocoon to butterfly that she documented in her new book, The Dream of You: Let Go of Broken Identities and Live the Life You Are Made For, how she grew up a Nigerian child raised by a white foster mother in London and discovered the power of her own voice. We also discuss why it’s vital that women seek community with others who are alike to—and different from—them, and how we can flex the muscle of facing our fears and change the periods in our lives into commas.

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Episode 18 – Conscious Leadership with Fred Kofman

Ever wonder if you have what it takes to be a good leader? Fred Kofman is here this week to tell us his thoughts on how to be “awake” to your own potential as a leader. Fred is the newly appointed advisor for leadership development at Google and was formerly the vice president of executive development at LinkedIn. His life passion now is to help people become transcendent leaders. Fred believes that leadership cannot be bought. and that it requires you getting in touch with ourselves, finding our life mission, committing to our values (and the courage to stand for those). He gives practical and helpful insight as to how to look within ourselves to discover our mission and purpose, and true life examples of how to put conscious leadership into practice.

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Episode 17: Leading a Sunscreen Revolution – with Holly Thaggard

When Holly Thaggard’s friend was diagnosed with skin cancer in her early 30s, Holly set out to learn everything she could about sunscreen, skin damage, and skin care. A former schoolteacher and professional harpist, Holly’s journey to entrepreneurism has been fueled by her passion to “change the way the world thinks about sunscreen.” Holly launched the successful and innovative sunscreen brand, Supergoop!, in 2007.

Full of triumphs and failures, of dead ends and redirected paths, Holly’s story is courageous and inspired. It’s especially encouraging for anyone who sees a problem and has an idea to make difference.

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Episode 16 – Don’t Beat Yourself Up: Learning Self-Compassion with Dr. Kristin Neff

Why is it that we’re so often able to show wells of compassion for other people, but can rarely find it for ourselves? In today’s episode, Dr. Kristin Neff will help us answer this question. Kristin is widely recognized as one of the world’s leading experts on self-compassion, being the first one to operationally define and measure the construct over a decade ago. She is currently an Associate Professor at the University of Texas at Austin and examines why we take this less-than-kind approach with ourselves, and how we basically respond with a “fight or flight” approach to ourselves–thinking that we can “whip ourselves into shape.” Kristin shows us that we really don’t have to beat ourselves up to change, and she outlines the steps to developing self-compassion. She encourages us that when we show the same kindness, support and encouragement to ourselves that we show others, we will radically change our lives.

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Episode 15 – Walking in the Messy Middle with Alison Faulkner

Alison Faulkner is a writer, speaker, and “self-proclaimed nonsense dancer,” who knows all about “walking in the messy middle.” She has worked with Fortune 500 companies and has been creating content for over 10 years. She built a business on throwing 900 person female dance parties, and found that the behind the hoopla, she was crashing and burning.  When she couldn’t figure out how to scale the business and preserve her sanity, she took a step back and started doing the things she wanted to do. Thus, The Alison Show was born, as well as Alison’s podcast Awesome with Alison and Allison’s Brand School. Now, she’s not ashamed to share the times “she break downs and cries under her desk, the times she fails, the times she wants to quit.” Even after a recent car accident, Alison has been pushing through the pain to embrace possibility. Alison’s mantra is: Only you can be you, and you’re already as awesome as you need to be.

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